So, I have free tickets to the SING program at Baylor tomorrow night. SING, from what I understand, is a production by different sororities and fraternities on campus, in which they put on a 7-8 minute broadway type skit based on a theme. Anyway, it sounded like fun, so Stanton and I have been planning on going for like a month. This would also be the first evening we left Chaselyn for the evening. MaryAnn and Chris were so gracious to offer their services, but now I'm having second thoughts...
Since its on a weeknight, I would only get to see Chaselyn for a little bit in the morning, a little in the afternoon when we picked her up, and then a little before bed time. So in my mind its like a whole day without her. The closer it gets, the more I'm chickening out. I just love her so much, I would rather do something on the weekend where I can spend all day with her and then just a couple hours out with Stanton. To add to my distress, Chaselyn has a little cold and I just feel its my job to take care of her.
Oh, the craziness of motherhood. I never would have imagined that my life would be so impacted by another person that I would consider missing a long awaited date night with my hubby. I've always been quite self-centered and not very empathetic (it's ok, the first step is admitting you have a problem), but Chaselyn has changed that. I am grateful that I have become a little less selfish, this was one of my big fears during pregnancy. But now I'm wondering if I'm taking it too far. I don't have to decide until tomorrow, but as I sit here and type with my sweet angel coughing and wheezing while she sleeps, I can't imagine not being there if she needs me.
Right now, I'm guessing I'll be sitting here at about this time tomorrow night writing some more and being around just in case ;)
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